An Ode to Endo Sisters

Endometriosis, the cruellest of cruel
I wish I had known back when I was in school
How life would be when I became a teen
I wish I’d known that life could be so mean
There’s no way to prepare for the endless pain
No way of knowing if you’ll ever be the same
Hours of torture, lasting days, even weeks
Getting by on morphine, drugged up so to speak
Cancelling socials, losing friends you once had
Oh why wasn’t I prepared that things would be so bad
Constantly battling to prove it’s not in your head
Constantly aching to jump freely out of bed
A longing to be heard, or that someone will hear
Then another “Oh it’s normal”, then come the tears
A long, lonely road of despair may follow
Faced along the way with sadness and sorrow
Never knowing what tomorrow will bring
But at least you can always be sure of one thing
Your endo sisters will always be there
Always showing they understand and care
Never to put you down or even forget you
And always to know that they’ve been there too
So had I known then, what I know now
I don’t think I’d have my wonderful sisters, and I don’t know how
I would have faced more surgery, and got through the days
Or have the strength to fight, or know the ways
See with endometriosis, it’s a chronic condition
But one thing’s for sure; it won’t stop my ambition
I thank you all for helping me through
And please please know - I’ll always be here for you.

The Decision

I want to live my life with no more regrets
I've still got to face my biggest challenge yet
Decision time looms ever closer to me
Will the right choice be the right one for me
A life lived in pain, can't take anymore
But this one final chance, maybe, I'm not sure
Will it give me the result that everyone hopes
If it doesn't work how will I ever cope
For many this option gives life a new meaning
I want to feel how I do when I am dreaming
A life free from pain, a reason to live
Showing everyone around, I have so much more to give
I hope, I pray,, I wish for an end
My life in his hands, but will he be able to mend
The torment inside, wreaking havoc all around
Intense feelings in my head though I daren't make a sound
The time is coming, it will all be over soon
My sentence will finish when I enter that room
Drifting off to a world filled with peace
The pain and the anguish forever may cease
Losing all that I am, everything that I know
But there's no more to lose, so I'll give it a go
As I go down to theatre and bid my fears goodbye
Then wake up a new woman, no more reasons to cry
Decision done, too late, can't go back
But maybe now, I'm finally on the right track
I'll grieve for what's lost, and face what life throws
But I'll never ever go back to the endless sorrows
Goodbye to you, the demon inside
I certainly won't miss you, and I'll no longer hide.